Sunday, July 29, 2012

Apotropaic Gypsy 7/29/2012

It's not easy,
    living a life where you fit in everywhere;
    but belong nowhere.
It's not easy,
    living with your mind and your body
    and a restless heart.
I'm a gypsy. A wanderer. A vagabond.
I have no home.
     Surround me with trees and I'll be comfortable enough.
I have no anchor.
     No one to keep my heart safe from harm.
I have no ties.
     I love people dearly, but expect to be forgotten.


Though all of this pushes me forward, I'm still trapped...
I have no course.


I often think about value and worth.
     My own value and worth.
If I have no port, why keep a ship?
What's my purpose if I have no bonds?


Perhaps it's not worth it.
Maybe Gaia doesn't need me.
Maybe I'm not in her plan.
I could just disappear.
Yet I know I can't.
I can't extinguish the light.
I have a calling. I can feel it.


Yet knowledge is often a curse.
I wish I didn't know better,
Life would be so much easier.
I know too much, think too much.
There's work to be done.
     Yet I'm left frustrated and unsatisfied;
      unaware of my task.
I cry out, but my Romany is heard by few,
      understood by fewer.


So I continue to stray, drift,
     do what I can to feel...
                          to feel.
I want to help, Gaia, my people.
I want to extinguish the darkness I see
      creeping through the roots,
      seeping through our pores.
Extinguish it before it eats everything
      that makes life beautiful.
Perhaps this is why I must wander.
My task is too great.
It cannot be accomplished in stagnation.
I must be free.


My home is Gaia.
My heart beats with the pulse of her swelling tides.

1 comment:

  1. This is amazing. "If I have no port, why keep a ship?" is probably one of my favorite lines I've ever read. It's really cool. You have a really great style. I also like the length. It seems longer than your usual and it's nice to see you trying something new =) It flowed great. Nothing seemed rushed and it ended perfectly.
    P.S. the title is really cool too!

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